Monday, April 6, 2015

Ramblings of the Heart

I stand the fence and wander in my heart to the place where 
we used to find one another so easily. 

I stand in a muddle of emotions that capture my breath 
and threaten to allow the enemy to speak words that are not cloaked in Truth.

Though they hold just enough reality of circumstance 
to create the fear of plausibility.

I'm not sure how hope rises as disappointment falls
or how faith holds on in the face of blatant disregard.

But it does. I do. Every single time that he doesn't,
I continue to believe that He will. 

Rescue that doesn't come places before me the scripture 
Hope deferred makes the heart sick.

My heart is sick with absence and knowing and hoping 
beyond what I can see.

And yet in the same breath, faith is the absence of knowledge
wrapped in the knowing of the Word. 

Sin comes wrapped in the woman the Proverbs warn about 
and the chains are tightly bound around him. 

Dripping words that give immediate satisfaction and usher 
in sin fall like rain on a cold January night, stinging like fire. 

Veiled eyes think that kindness is the same thing as acceptance
and tolerance for sin.

Arms spread and heart exposed because the shield of Truth has 
been laid down to grasp the flesh.

And the spinning begins, like a death-spiral and the ground screams
closer with every passing moment.

Eyes unable to see clearly that the chaos is about to meet 
in the middle of the crossroad.

A yes or no will be required with your heart and action
no longer will empty words mask Truth.

So on my knees again today, I watch for your return 
from the slop that the world offers as love.

Believing that you will remember 
and I will be there to see.